All by myself.
A recluse, scared of judgement and being misunderstood for a thousand times. Will they ever understand? Or will I be left to alone forever?
[attr="class","scotttalker"]Need a friend? Why not join the Friendship Initiative! We want to help YOU Lorsette in getting your friendship needs! So please, sign up and join our summer fair and make some friends!
The jingle of the radio echoed in Scott's mind upon crossing the threshold into the joy-filled world of the summer fair. Children laughed through the summer heat, playing games while towing around friends or parents. The crowded area was ill-suited for Scott's endless anxieties, however, the young man was determined. Since moving to the giant city of Lorsette, Scott struggled to create connections between himself and others. Coming from humble town roots and shifting into the big city was overwhelming for the young man.
People were everywhere, around every corner and in a variety of vibrant colours. Thus, discovering that single person who clicked was a struggle for Scott. Shyness consumed him in conversation and discovering those of a similar soul was a struggle for Scott. Meeting places were decided after the pairings, the ginger-haired young man being paired with a man named Leith Belrose. In the anxiety-ridden man's situation, it was a small food stand called Chuck's Food Truck. Although, Scott struggled to bring himself into the open...
Something as seemingly insignificant as saying a greeting appeared like a massive giant hovering over him... It was intimidating! A anxious mmm hummed through Scott's lips as his hands rung and he attempted to gain the courage. A deep breath was sucked into the young man's lungs and held before a lengthy exhale followed. He would be alright! He could do it! Slowly, he gazed out at the picnic tables where happy families met for lunch. His bottom lip retreated beneath his teeth as he softly chewed on it. He needed to do this, lest his partner feel unwanted!
Another deep breath followed by a long, slow exhale was done. The young man racked up any remaining particles of courage and strove forward. Simultaneously, in his mediocre bravery, Scott worried about every little detail with every step. About his clothes being ill-favourable. Was a pair of shorts and a plain white t-shirt even good enough?! Or should he had worn something he was prepared to get dirty?! The initial interactions... Would he impress him or receive a stern chastising? The thought left the long-haired man anxious about everything that would unfold...
Slowly, he approached the picnic table designed as the created meeting place for the pair. Hands proceeding to be wrung as the young ginger sat down. A majority of people proved difficult to deal with because of his lack of social capabilities... however... Scott felt desperate for a friend. He wanted somebody to spend time with and accomplish those happy little acts of friendship... Things he did with Dimitri until his feelings came flooding back and leaving him a nervous wreck around the handsome, older kelpie.
In silence, Scott stationed himself at the table, basking in the gorgeous summer sun. The warmth flooded over his shoulders, warming his back while he waited. Thoughts swirled with every passing second of concern. He concerned himself with the possibility of failing his overarching goal. He craved friendship, a fleeting concept, but one well-needed. Although, whether friendship initiative would accomplish its goals was difficult to confirm... There was no telling who the officials running the event paired him with.
They could be opposites without a common interest in sight... The thought worried Scott, making him feel empty... He prayed that would not be a case... and he wished for a friend... needed one to get finally have another person to attach to.
Alone with my thoughts
601 Words || Leith Belrose