Jan 29, 2018 19:34:09 GMT -6
816 WORDS
@vala
BY MINNIE OF GS
THERE ARE SOME MEMORIES,
Sensitively was oftentimes an enemy for Malakai since whenever it decided to be displayed lowered his self-esteem and made him feel pathetic. Sounds that would merely spark a startling sometimes caused him to quiver in fear solely because of the volume constantly booming during those tortured years. The various methods to inflict the wounds that scared his body, being most condensed around the torso. Although, in those few moments of quivering and fearful thoughts there was always a feeling of weakness. They always subsided in time, gradually ebbing until his body stilled and his breathing reverted back to its regular pace. When his brown eyes trailed over to Vala, guilt entered the bashful man's head and mild embarrassment over his extreme sensitivity. The concept of being incapable to tolerate thunderous noises made the self-conscious thoughts generate again and his eyes avert from his raven-haired friend.
All his eyes focused on was the sheet of white snow below him that was broken with footprints; he could not bare sparing a glance at Vala. When an apology was made, Malakai flinched at the fact his friend felt required to apologize over making a loud sound. These moments when he found himself unable to function similar to the common definition of a normal individual were the times the tall male felt as though all his secrets were out. The self-conscious thoughts ruled, tearing at the shreds of confidence he gained and insisted that he should remain shameful over his inability to tolerate loud noises; like wolves swarming a downed deer. A deep breath was taken and released, giving the bashful man a minuscule amount of confidence and bravery.
"D-don't apologize," he began quietly. "... I... I should learn not to be so s-sensitive..."
There was fragility in the words as Malakai softly spoke, unable to fend off the pauses and stutters. A matter of impossibility being stated did not assist the bashful man since learning to not be sensitive did appear like a goal far beyond his reach. For a few moments, the field medic remained silent while debating his next set of words, his eyes staring into the dark brew of coffee as though it was courage in a cup.
"... Sorry... I just... loud noises, they just... they..." The bashful man began, having difficulty stating the next piece. Another deep inhale and exhale were taken for calmness. "Loud noises just remind me... of those times."
Specifically mentioning the reason was always bothersome to the bashful man, almost rattling him similar to when he directly brought up his mother. It caused him to wonder about those frightening thoughts of her escaping the prison and traveling to Lorsette to find him. Those promises she screamed before law enforcement forcefully pushed her into the car and drove her away. The mere thought of that day and the pondering of an occurrence such as his mother escaping caused Malakai to shiver, making him feel cold with terror. Alas, when the time came to walk home he continued in a silence as his thoughts lingered on some of the horrors, turning his skin a touch more pale. The sudden settling of hush between himself and Vala barely tolerable during the duration of the walk. Further guilt flooded into his mind as he wished his sensitively towards loud noises was not absurdly high.
Eventually, the extensive and quiet walk began to reach its end as the sidewalk, streets and various other features reached heavier familiarity. As Malakai grew closer to home, he seemed to physical relax as he burdened his pondering with thoughts of possible cooking ideas for Vala; an excellent distraction. The remainder of his coffee had been finished, the styrofoam cup discarded in a trash pin earlier into the venture to his home. As they closed in onto the muted grey stone stairway leading up towards both the front door and the the dark wood deck. Black bars enclosed the sides of the stairs and around the borders of the deck, thin with the vertical metal bars spiraling in shape. The bashful man was quick to tromp up the stairs, a newfound smile upon his lips while he opened the door.
"Any requests for food?" The question was asked cleanly, lacking bashful tones.
There was excitement in the concept of cooking for another individual, which was something rare for Malakai. Lastly, this worked as both an apology for tardiness and his own ridiculous sensitivity that the ravenette was forced to put up with. As he passed through the door's threshold, he kept the door open to allow her access to the simple foyer. The foyer has never been grand, merely holding numerous wall hooks for coats, shoes placed randomly, a small tool chest, a tiny cabinet, boxes (some occupied by soda cans) and various other miscellaneous items. Patiently, Malakai waited for his friend to enter with plans of closing the door behind her.
All his eyes focused on was the sheet of white snow below him that was broken with footprints; he could not bare sparing a glance at Vala. When an apology was made, Malakai flinched at the fact his friend felt required to apologize over making a loud sound. These moments when he found himself unable to function similar to the common definition of a normal individual were the times the tall male felt as though all his secrets were out. The self-conscious thoughts ruled, tearing at the shreds of confidence he gained and insisted that he should remain shameful over his inability to tolerate loud noises; like wolves swarming a downed deer. A deep breath was taken and released, giving the bashful man a minuscule amount of confidence and bravery.
"D-don't apologize," he began quietly. "... I... I should learn not to be so s-sensitive..."
There was fragility in the words as Malakai softly spoke, unable to fend off the pauses and stutters. A matter of impossibility being stated did not assist the bashful man since learning to not be sensitive did appear like a goal far beyond his reach. For a few moments, the field medic remained silent while debating his next set of words, his eyes staring into the dark brew of coffee as though it was courage in a cup.
"... Sorry... I just... loud noises, they just... they..." The bashful man began, having difficulty stating the next piece. Another deep inhale and exhale were taken for calmness. "Loud noises just remind me... of those times."
Specifically mentioning the reason was always bothersome to the bashful man, almost rattling him similar to when he directly brought up his mother. It caused him to wonder about those frightening thoughts of her escaping the prison and traveling to Lorsette to find him. Those promises she screamed before law enforcement forcefully pushed her into the car and drove her away. The mere thought of that day and the pondering of an occurrence such as his mother escaping caused Malakai to shiver, making him feel cold with terror. Alas, when the time came to walk home he continued in a silence as his thoughts lingered on some of the horrors, turning his skin a touch more pale. The sudden settling of hush between himself and Vala barely tolerable during the duration of the walk. Further guilt flooded into his mind as he wished his sensitively towards loud noises was not absurdly high.
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Eventually, the extensive and quiet walk began to reach its end as the sidewalk, streets and various other features reached heavier familiarity. As Malakai grew closer to home, he seemed to physical relax as he burdened his pondering with thoughts of possible cooking ideas for Vala; an excellent distraction. The remainder of his coffee had been finished, the styrofoam cup discarded in a trash pin earlier into the venture to his home. As they closed in onto the muted grey stone stairway leading up towards both the front door and the the dark wood deck. Black bars enclosed the sides of the stairs and around the borders of the deck, thin with the vertical metal bars spiraling in shape. The bashful man was quick to tromp up the stairs, a newfound smile upon his lips while he opened the door.
"Any requests for food?" The question was asked cleanly, lacking bashful tones.
There was excitement in the concept of cooking for another individual, which was something rare for Malakai. Lastly, this worked as both an apology for tardiness and his own ridiculous sensitivity that the ravenette was forced to put up with. As he passed through the door's threshold, he kept the door open to allow her access to the simple foyer. The foyer has never been grand, merely holding numerous wall hooks for coats, shoes placed randomly, a small tool chest, a tiny cabinet, boxes (some occupied by soda cans) and various other miscellaneous items. Patiently, Malakai waited for his friend to enter with plans of closing the door behind her.
- - that will never fade.