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::(Jessica Blane)::
General Information
Full Name: Jessica Blane
Name Meaning: “God beholds”
Name Origin: Hebrew
Reason for Name: Her parents had high expectations of her and her name reflects that. She was set to be something even God might behold with a sense of reverence and fear when she became the war monster they intended her to be.
Nicknames: Jess, Jessie, Mom
Species: Raiju
Gender: Female
Age: ANCIENT. She was born a little into the War of Traitors.
Birthdate: January 26
First Word(s): “Stop”
Sexuality: Heterosexual
Scent: Lemon and Ginger
Dominant Hand: Left
Astrological Sign: Aquarius
Likes: Her Chosen Family, Coffee, Following Orders, Books, Travelling, PUPPIES
Dislikes: Mud, Getting Angry, Rainy Days, Needing Others, Extraneous Emotions, Cooking
Name Meaning: “God beholds”
Name Origin: Hebrew
Reason for Name: Her parents had high expectations of her and her name reflects that. She was set to be something even God might behold with a sense of reverence and fear when she became the war monster they intended her to be.
Nicknames: Jess, Jessie, Mom
Species: Raiju
Gender: Female
Age: ANCIENT. She was born a little into the War of Traitors.
Birthdate: January 26
First Word(s): “Stop”
Sexuality: Heterosexual
Scent: Lemon and Ginger
Dominant Hand: Left
Astrological Sign: Aquarius
Likes: Her Chosen Family, Coffee, Following Orders, Books, Travelling, PUPPIES
Dislikes: Mud, Getting Angry, Rainy Days, Needing Others, Extraneous Emotions, Cooking
Appearance
Height: 5’6”
Weight: 140 lb
Build: Softening muscles
Eyes: Green, Almond Shaped
Hair: Jessica has naturally green hair she usually only lightly styles to keep it smooth and relatively maintained
Clothing: Jessica tends to dress for comfort, wearing warm tops and stretchy pants. She doesn’t care much about color or style, but anything gaudy or attention-grabbing is out of the question.
Scars: Scars! Yep! She has ‘em. Lots. They’re mainly smaller scuffs from the countless fights in her past. She used to see them as badges of honor, now they’re just a reminder of a path she shouldn’t let herself go down.
Tattoos: In her long life Jessica has avoided any tattoos, not because she’s against them but just because the thought never occurred to her.
Weight: 140 lb
Build: Softening muscles
Eyes: Green, Almond Shaped
Hair: Jessica has naturally green hair she usually only lightly styles to keep it smooth and relatively maintained
Clothing: Jessica tends to dress for comfort, wearing warm tops and stretchy pants. She doesn’t care much about color or style, but anything gaudy or attention-grabbing is out of the question.
Scars: Scars! Yep! She has ‘em. Lots. They’re mainly smaller scuffs from the countless fights in her past. She used to see them as badges of honor, now they’re just a reminder of a path she shouldn’t let herself go down.
Tattoos: In her long life Jessica has avoided any tattoos, not because she’s against them but just because the thought never occurred to her.
Social
Relatives: Family Tree
Role Models: Adonai Blane (Past and Present Role Model) - Since she was a child, Jessica has looked up to Adonai and wanted to be like him. There was a brief period when she wanted nothing to do with him - or any of her family for that matter - but even during that time she idolized a twisted version of him she’d developed in her head. Now that she’s settled down, he’s once again on the path ahead of her, somehow managing to take care of 8 children and live a relatively normal life. He’s completely changed in her mind from the way she saw him and looked up to him as a child, but he still holds the title of her greatest role model. When she was younger she sought to follow in his footsteps, but now her admiration for him is different. She is firmly on her own path, but he’s accomplished what she’s trying to and a part of her thinks if she lets him down at this point she’d be letting down her future.
Elijah (Past Role Model) - Elijah was someone Jessica met during the War of Traitors at a point where she was tipping from semi-human to a true monster. He guided her ambition and, as much as she believed they had a sort of equal standing at the time, was starting to take control over her life before her brother scared him off. In the present day the only think he taught her that she intends to keep close is that the importance of life is important to lose site of in any hunt for glory.
Lawrence (Recent Role Model) - Lawrence was Jessica’s guiding light as well as her one true equal. Like most of her role models, she saw him for more than he really was. She thought he represented everything good and, in her world, he did. He taught her the most important lessons of anyone because she was willing to truly listen to him. From him she learned that fighting is pointless if it’s not for what you believe in, that compassion isn’t completely pointless, and that there’s more to life than whatever war you’re waging with yourself. Although he passed away some years ago, she still lets what he would have wanted build her into a better person.
Herself (Present Role Model) - Normally you being your own role model would just be considered life, but Jessica spent so long on someone else’s path, fighting battles that weren’t her own, that she has to stop and pay attention to what she truly thinks. It’s easy for her to lose her own guidance when someone else asks something of her, but she’s trying to change that and live a life that is truly her own.
Mentors: Throughout her life, many different mentors have led Jessica astray. She believes she’s learned her lesson and won’t let people guide her in the future. The most impactful of her mentors were her parents. They shaped her into the weapon she is today, not through their training but through the way that they twisted her world into a battlefield.
Reputation: Jessica’s reputation depends entirely on who you ask. If you ask someone that’s fought beside her or knew her when she was younger, they’ll tell you that she’s cold and unrelenting, incapable of true empathy yet brilliant in her tactics. If you ask her children or someone she’s met while living in Canada, they’ll say that she can be a bit blunt but she means well overall and will stand by her word.
Cooperation: Cooperating with others is hard for Jessica. If their goals don’t align with hers she’s cynical enough to suspect they’re just trying to throw her off and hinder her progress. If the goals do align with her’s she’ll imagine they’re trying to use her to claim the achievement for herself. In recent years she’s tried to be more open to help and she’s willing to help others when they need it, but it takes some patience to work with others closely.
Sociability: Jess can carry out a conversation well. She’s recently learned to ‘chit chat’ and she can be a little blunt sometimes, but unless someone hits a sore spot she’s a pretty nice person.
Community: Jess sees her current community as a place she’s there to help. She’s a friendly neighbor and open to people coming to her when they need anything, even if she seems a bit closed off at times.
Role Models: Adonai Blane (Past and Present Role Model) - Since she was a child, Jessica has looked up to Adonai and wanted to be like him. There was a brief period when she wanted nothing to do with him - or any of her family for that matter - but even during that time she idolized a twisted version of him she’d developed in her head. Now that she’s settled down, he’s once again on the path ahead of her, somehow managing to take care of 8 children and live a relatively normal life. He’s completely changed in her mind from the way she saw him and looked up to him as a child, but he still holds the title of her greatest role model. When she was younger she sought to follow in his footsteps, but now her admiration for him is different. She is firmly on her own path, but he’s accomplished what she’s trying to and a part of her thinks if she lets him down at this point she’d be letting down her future.
Elijah (Past Role Model) - Elijah was someone Jessica met during the War of Traitors at a point where she was tipping from semi-human to a true monster. He guided her ambition and, as much as she believed they had a sort of equal standing at the time, was starting to take control over her life before her brother scared him off. In the present day the only think he taught her that she intends to keep close is that the importance of life is important to lose site of in any hunt for glory.
Lawrence (Recent Role Model) - Lawrence was Jessica’s guiding light as well as her one true equal. Like most of her role models, she saw him for more than he really was. She thought he represented everything good and, in her world, he did. He taught her the most important lessons of anyone because she was willing to truly listen to him. From him she learned that fighting is pointless if it’s not for what you believe in, that compassion isn’t completely pointless, and that there’s more to life than whatever war you’re waging with yourself. Although he passed away some years ago, she still lets what he would have wanted build her into a better person.
Herself (Present Role Model) - Normally you being your own role model would just be considered life, but Jessica spent so long on someone else’s path, fighting battles that weren’t her own, that she has to stop and pay attention to what she truly thinks. It’s easy for her to lose her own guidance when someone else asks something of her, but she’s trying to change that and live a life that is truly her own.
Mentors: Throughout her life, many different mentors have led Jessica astray. She believes she’s learned her lesson and won’t let people guide her in the future. The most impactful of her mentors were her parents. They shaped her into the weapon she is today, not through their training but through the way that they twisted her world into a battlefield.
Reputation: Jessica’s reputation depends entirely on who you ask. If you ask someone that’s fought beside her or knew her when she was younger, they’ll tell you that she’s cold and unrelenting, incapable of true empathy yet brilliant in her tactics. If you ask her children or someone she’s met while living in Canada, they’ll say that she can be a bit blunt but she means well overall and will stand by her word.
Cooperation: Cooperating with others is hard for Jessica. If their goals don’t align with hers she’s cynical enough to suspect they’re just trying to throw her off and hinder her progress. If the goals do align with her’s she’ll imagine they’re trying to use her to claim the achievement for herself. In recent years she’s tried to be more open to help and she’s willing to help others when they need it, but it takes some patience to work with others closely.
Sociability: Jess can carry out a conversation well. She’s recently learned to ‘chit chat’ and she can be a little blunt sometimes, but unless someone hits a sore spot she’s a pretty nice person.
Community: Jess sees her current community as a place she’s there to help. She’s a friendly neighbor and open to people coming to her when they need anything, even if she seems a bit closed off at times.
Mannerisms
Posture: Jessica carries herself relatively well. She doesn’t slouch very often, and her stance is usually wide, an ancient habit drilled into her in case of a surprise attack.
Walking Style: Jess walks relatively quietly, usually keeping her balance forward in a way that would make it easy to take off in a run at a moment’s notice.
Speech Patterns: Jess talks a bit slowly, thinking out her words before actually talking. She also talks formally, abstaining from most slang.
Habits: Jess doesn’t have many good habits to speak of. Most of them are forced into her from centuries of battle experience. One such habit is always physically tensing when she gets stressed or thinks there’s conflict brewing.
Accent: Jessica has a slight British accent that comes out at seemingly random times.
Walking Style: Jess walks relatively quietly, usually keeping her balance forward in a way that would make it easy to take off in a run at a moment’s notice.
Speech Patterns: Jess talks a bit slowly, thinking out her words before actually talking. She also talks formally, abstaining from most slang.
Habits: Jess doesn’t have many good habits to speak of. Most of them are forced into her from centuries of battle experience. One such habit is always physically tensing when she gets stressed or thinks there’s conflict brewing.
Accent: Jessica has a slight British accent that comes out at seemingly random times.
Routines
Morning Routine: In the morning Jess wakes up early, makes coffee, makes her kids lunches for school, then drinks the coffee with a small breakfast before starting on whatever she has to do for the day.
Weekly Routine: Jess’ primary concern is her children and her secondary concern is running her B&B. Because of the constantly shifting schedules of these things, her weekly schedule is rarely solid. Her weekends are usually spent taking care of guests and her children while weekdays are focused on financials, cleaning, and other errands that may come up.
Traditions: No traditions have stuck with Jess throughout the ages. She only even celebrates holidays because of her children, if they were out of the house it would be business as usual.
Weekly Routine: Jess’ primary concern is her children and her secondary concern is running her B&B. Because of the constantly shifting schedules of these things, her weekly schedule is rarely solid. Her weekends are usually spent taking care of guests and her children while weekdays are focused on financials, cleaning, and other errands that may come up.
Traditions: No traditions have stuck with Jess throughout the ages. She only even celebrates holidays because of her children, if they were out of the house it would be business as usual.
Love
Relationship Status: Widowed
Love at First Sight: Jessica does not believe in love at first sight. After all, how can you know you love someone when you don’t know who they are? She believes people should earn the love they’re given.
Behaviour: In a relationship Jess tries to do what she can for her S.O., but she closes herself off very easily. If she gets close enough to someone she may even try to cut off their relationship because she gets scared of the commitment she’s facing.
Past Loves: Elijah (although she later learned that wasn’t really love) and Lawrence. Besides those two she’s never been open enough to others to develop anything close to love.
Heart Breaks: Jess’ truest heartbreak was the death of her husband and soulmate. It’s something she’s still recovering from.
Love Language: Words of Affirmation
Love at First Sight: Jessica does not believe in love at first sight. After all, how can you know you love someone when you don’t know who they are? She believes people should earn the love they’re given.
Behaviour: In a relationship Jess tries to do what she can for her S.O., but she closes herself off very easily. If she gets close enough to someone she may even try to cut off their relationship because she gets scared of the commitment she’s facing.
Past Loves: Elijah (although she later learned that wasn’t really love) and Lawrence. Besides those two she’s never been open enough to others to develop anything close to love.
Heart Breaks: Jess’ truest heartbreak was the death of her husband and soulmate. It’s something she’s still recovering from.
Love Language: Words of Affirmation
Conflict
Sensitivity: Jessica tries to maintain her calm exterior at any cost. She does snap occasionally, though, and when she does you should run.
Response: Jessica’s instinct is to jump into combat when challenged. Even if she chooses to fall back on words, there will be a desire to fight beneath the surface. She will try to maintain a diplomatic facade as long as possible, though.
Sore Spots: Bringing up her past can easily trigger Jess. Alternatively, if you insult her children you’re dead.
Words or Sword: Jessica wants to use words to fight but her instinct is to physically fight.
Choice of Weapon: Jessica prefers to fight with her fists or her powers. She can use weapons, but she doesn’t like to rely on things outside herself.
Worst Enemy: The AP, specifically Lawrence’s family, are at the top of Jess’ enemy list.
Enemy Tales: They killed her husband. What more reason does she need to despise the AP?
Calming Down: Once she’s upset the only way for Jess to calm down is to leave the situation, which isn’t something she’ll do kindly. If someone didn’t pull her away she’d be willing to fight to the death.
Response: Jessica’s instinct is to jump into combat when challenged. Even if she chooses to fall back on words, there will be a desire to fight beneath the surface. She will try to maintain a diplomatic facade as long as possible, though.
Sore Spots: Bringing up her past can easily trigger Jess. Alternatively, if you insult her children you’re dead.
Words or Sword: Jessica wants to use words to fight but her instinct is to physically fight.
Choice of Weapon: Jessica prefers to fight with her fists or her powers. She can use weapons, but she doesn’t like to rely on things outside herself.
Worst Enemy: The AP, specifically Lawrence’s family, are at the top of Jess’ enemy list.
Enemy Tales: They killed her husband. What more reason does she need to despise the AP?
Calming Down: Once she’s upset the only way for Jess to calm down is to leave the situation, which isn’t something she’ll do kindly. If someone didn’t pull her away she’d be willing to fight to the death.
Occupation
Current Occupation: Jessica currently runs a B&B.
Reason for Job: She chose this occupation because it forced her to settle down and it gives her an opportunity to give her children responsibilities.
Favorite Past Occupation: Any war she fought for a good cause. She particularly enjoys being in charge of some tactics, but if a job didn’t involve some time on the front lines she got bored.
Least Favorite Past Occupation: Working for the AP. She never should have let herself go down her path. It is, perhaps, her greatest regret.
Dream Job: As much as she hates it, her dream job is still on the front lines. The thought sickens her, but that’s the life she knows best and even if she’s vowed to never go back to it she misses it sometimes. No matter what, it’s clear that a desk job isn’t one she’d be able to live with.
Reason for Job: She chose this occupation because it forced her to settle down and it gives her an opportunity to give her children responsibilities.
Favorite Past Occupation: Any war she fought for a good cause. She particularly enjoys being in charge of some tactics, but if a job didn’t involve some time on the front lines she got bored.
Least Favorite Past Occupation: Working for the AP. She never should have let herself go down her path. It is, perhaps, her greatest regret.
Dream Job: As much as she hates it, her dream job is still on the front lines. The thought sickens her, but that’s the life she knows best and even if she’s vowed to never go back to it she misses it sometimes. No matter what, it’s clear that a desk job isn’t one she’d be able to live with.
Philosophy
Religious Beliefs: Jessica does not believe in any higher power. There are gods out there, but they couldn’t care less about the doings of mortals, or else life wouldn’t be so cruel.
Superstitions: Although Jessica doesn’t have any superstitions she is curious about them.
Morality: The world isn’t black and white. Everyone’s fighting for their own cause and Jessica doesn’t believe anyone can determine which side is more righteous. As long as you’re fighting for something you’re on your own right path.
Outlook on Life: Currently her life is lived for her children. Throughout her life she’s only focused on one thing at any given time. Usually it’s winning a war, but raising children isn’t that different to her.
Taboos: Very little is completely forbidden in Jessica’s mind, but the things that are are truly unthinkable to her and she won’t react kindly to them. Things like harmful drugs that damage your body fall into this category right next to torturing innocent souls.
Vices: Jess’ worst vice has always been her ambition. It’s lead her down every wrong path she’s taken.
Virtues: If patience is a virtue, Jess is blessed. At least, she thinks so. Her patience with children and idiots is never ending, but her emotions will get a bit short when dealing with conflict. She wouldn’t make a good diplomat. She is also brave, resilient, and well meaning.
Superstitions: Although Jessica doesn’t have any superstitions she is curious about them.
Morality: The world isn’t black and white. Everyone’s fighting for their own cause and Jessica doesn’t believe anyone can determine which side is more righteous. As long as you’re fighting for something you’re on your own right path.
Outlook on Life: Currently her life is lived for her children. Throughout her life she’s only focused on one thing at any given time. Usually it’s winning a war, but raising children isn’t that different to her.
Taboos: Very little is completely forbidden in Jessica’s mind, but the things that are are truly unthinkable to her and she won’t react kindly to them. Things like harmful drugs that damage your body fall into this category right next to torturing innocent souls.
Vices: Jess’ worst vice has always been her ambition. It’s lead her down every wrong path she’s taken.
Virtues: If patience is a virtue, Jess is blessed. At least, she thinks so. Her patience with children and idiots is never ending, but her emotions will get a bit short when dealing with conflict. She wouldn’t make a good diplomat. She is also brave, resilient, and well meaning.
Character
Priorities: Currently protecting her children is Jessica’s highest priority.
Motivation: Jessica has always had an absolute need to succeed. What she has to succeed at depends on the moment, but when she sets her attention on it she does so with a single minded vision and a need to be perfect.
Self Confidence: Jessica is confident on the surface. Strangers or enemies would never get the chance to see her weakness, but around people she cares about her confidence may waver if she thinks she might let them down.
Self Control: Jessica thinks she has more self control than she actually does. She has nearly endless reserves of patience, but when she snaps or falls into strong emotions she finds it difficult to regain control.
Worries: Jessica doesn’t want to let people down. She can close herself off and block others out easily and sometimes it’s easier to fall back on that, but she cannot stand the thought of disappointing anyone, especially the people she cares about.
Soft Spots: Her children, puppies, and her loved ones. In that order. Very little else will be able to get her sympathy.
Cruel Streaks: If Jess gets too emotional she falls back on cruelty to block out everything else.
Reliability: Jessica doesn’t make many promises she can’t keep, but that doesn’t mean she always keeps them. If she’s in a particularly emotional state any commitments might slip her mind.
Personally Acknowledged Flaws: Jess knows that she’s too ambitious and struggles with compassion. That being said, she sees her lack of compassion through how it affects others, so her estimates of her own cruelly are a bit downplayed.
Type of Humor: Dark. Definitely not punny >.>
Motivation: Jessica has always had an absolute need to succeed. What she has to succeed at depends on the moment, but when she sets her attention on it she does so with a single minded vision and a need to be perfect.
Self Confidence: Jessica is confident on the surface. Strangers or enemies would never get the chance to see her weakness, but around people she cares about her confidence may waver if she thinks she might let them down.
Self Control: Jessica thinks she has more self control than she actually does. She has nearly endless reserves of patience, but when she snaps or falls into strong emotions she finds it difficult to regain control.
Worries: Jessica doesn’t want to let people down. She can close herself off and block others out easily and sometimes it’s easier to fall back on that, but she cannot stand the thought of disappointing anyone, especially the people she cares about.
Soft Spots: Her children, puppies, and her loved ones. In that order. Very little else will be able to get her sympathy.
Cruel Streaks: If Jess gets too emotional she falls back on cruelty to block out everything else.
Reliability: Jessica doesn’t make many promises she can’t keep, but that doesn’t mean she always keeps them. If she’s in a particularly emotional state any commitments might slip her mind.
Personally Acknowledged Flaws: Jess knows that she’s too ambitious and struggles with compassion. That being said, she sees her lack of compassion through how it affects others, so her estimates of her own cruelly are a bit downplayed.
Type of Humor: Dark. Definitely not punny >.>
Favorites
Animal: Puppy
Food: “Is coffee a food? If so, definitely coffee!”
Fairytale: The Knights of Camelot
Vacation: Jess wouldn’t know what to do if she was given a vacation, but if she had one she wouldn’t want to travel. She’d prefer to stay home and relax on her own.
Music: 1980s Rock and Roll
Color: Blue
Type of Art: Literature
Day of the Week: Thursdays - She still has work to do but it’s not in the first half of the week when all the work is still building up.
Food: “Is coffee a food? If so, definitely coffee!”
Fairytale: The Knights of Camelot
Vacation: Jess wouldn’t know what to do if she was given a vacation, but if she had one she wouldn’t want to travel. She’d prefer to stay home and relax on her own.
Music: 1980s Rock and Roll
Color: Blue
Type of Art: Literature
Day of the Week: Thursdays - She still has work to do but it’s not in the first half of the week when all the work is still building up.
The Past
Childhood Mannerisms: Jessica’s childhood was something that was robbed from her. Even as a kid, she approached things with a cold dedication and an undying need to be successful.
Childhood Wealth: Her family was quite wealthy as a kid, but they didn’t spoil her. If they had she may have been a better person than she is today.
Parental Care: Her parents only cared about her so far as they could use her as a weapon. She had several older siblings who would have cared for her, but she closed herself off to them.
Greatest Achievement: A younger Jess would have listed off her accomplishments on the battlefield to answer this question. Now the answer is obvious. Her greatest achievement is her children.
Worst Thing to Loved Ones: The worst thing Jessica’s done to someone she cares about is difficult to define. Every action she took when she was younger was almost custom shaped to keep the people she cared about away. That being said, she’s never directly lashed out and harmed anyone she cares about. She does, however, blame herself for Lawrence’s death. Allowing him to take such a risky path for the sake of a simple life with her was a bit of selfish desire she thinks she never should have acted upon.
Advice to Younger Self: “Snap out of it! Your parents aren’t the ones you should be focused on impressing. Open your eyes and let your siblings help you out, they’re the ones that actually care.”
Nostalgic Smells: *insert gym smells here*
Childhood Goals: To be better. That was Jessica’s sole dedication when she was younger. Self improvement wasn’t enough, she wanted to be better than everything and everyone around her.
Best Childhood Memory: The first time she was let onto the battlefield and won
Worst Childhood Memory: If you ask Jess, her entire past is one big bad memory. She was very misguided and she feels guilty about that. When she was younger the memory that haunted her was her parents looking down at her disapprovingly.
Saviours: Although he didn’t actually save her life, she sees Lawrence as the reason she actually started living and that is a debt far greater than what her physical life would be worth.
Progression: As a child, Jess was determined to be the best. That determination in combination with her parents will shaped her into a warrior. As she fought in the war of traitors, she lost track of most of her morals, becoming what she now considers to be a monster. After the war ended there was a point of change where Jessica realized her parents would never really care and she shouldn’t let them control her. From there the cause she fought for was unclear, she just kept fighting so she didn’t have to think about it. It wasn’t until she met Lawrence that that really changed. He was first a burden then he began to open her eyes to the real world she’d been blocking out. She softened to the world, especially when he was around. She’d become something resembling a normal person after they quit the AP. When he died, her world shifted again and she put up some of her defenses. She tries to keep herself open, knowing her kids don’t need a soldier for a mother, but she struggles with it.
Childhood Wealth: Her family was quite wealthy as a kid, but they didn’t spoil her. If they had she may have been a better person than she is today.
Parental Care: Her parents only cared about her so far as they could use her as a weapon. She had several older siblings who would have cared for her, but she closed herself off to them.
Greatest Achievement: A younger Jess would have listed off her accomplishments on the battlefield to answer this question. Now the answer is obvious. Her greatest achievement is her children.
Worst Thing to Loved Ones: The worst thing Jessica’s done to someone she cares about is difficult to define. Every action she took when she was younger was almost custom shaped to keep the people she cared about away. That being said, she’s never directly lashed out and harmed anyone she cares about. She does, however, blame herself for Lawrence’s death. Allowing him to take such a risky path for the sake of a simple life with her was a bit of selfish desire she thinks she never should have acted upon.
Advice to Younger Self: “Snap out of it! Your parents aren’t the ones you should be focused on impressing. Open your eyes and let your siblings help you out, they’re the ones that actually care.”
Nostalgic Smells: *insert gym smells here*
Childhood Goals: To be better. That was Jessica’s sole dedication when she was younger. Self improvement wasn’t enough, she wanted to be better than everything and everyone around her.
Best Childhood Memory: The first time she was let onto the battlefield and won
Worst Childhood Memory: If you ask Jess, her entire past is one big bad memory. She was very misguided and she feels guilty about that. When she was younger the memory that haunted her was her parents looking down at her disapprovingly.
Saviours: Although he didn’t actually save her life, she sees Lawrence as the reason she actually started living and that is a debt far greater than what her physical life would be worth.
Progression: As a child, Jess was determined to be the best. That determination in combination with her parents will shaped her into a warrior. As she fought in the war of traitors, she lost track of most of her morals, becoming what she now considers to be a monster. After the war ended there was a point of change where Jessica realized her parents would never really care and she shouldn’t let them control her. From there the cause she fought for was unclear, she just kept fighting so she didn’t have to think about it. It wasn’t until she met Lawrence that that really changed. He was first a burden then he began to open her eyes to the real world she’d been blocking out. She softened to the world, especially when he was around. She’d become something resembling a normal person after they quit the AP. When he died, her world shifted again and she put up some of her defenses. She tries to keep herself open, knowing her kids don’t need a soldier for a mother, but she struggles with it.
The Future
Ambitions: Jessica wants her life to be spent doing something for someone. In the past that goal has been unguided, but now she focuses her energy on people she cares about, specifically her children.
Plans: Currently Jessica is entirely focused on raising her children. Once they no longer rely on her she won’t know what to do with the rest of her life. Whether she stays in Canada or disappears off the grid again has yet to be determined. If asked she’ll assure people that she plans to stay for a while yet; after all, what other life does she have?
Dreams and Wishes: If asked, Jess will say her greatest fantasy is that she can go on to live a normal life. In reality, she’s been chasing dreams all her life, trying to be the perfect soldier she’d wanted to be as a child. It’s only now that she’s allowed herself to return to reality.
Long Term Friends: Jess doesn’t like depending on others, but she can’t picture her life without her kids or her siblings. They’ve become more a part of her life than she likes to acknowledge.
Plans: Currently Jessica is entirely focused on raising her children. Once they no longer rely on her she won’t know what to do with the rest of her life. Whether she stays in Canada or disappears off the grid again has yet to be determined. If asked she’ll assure people that she plans to stay for a while yet; after all, what other life does she have?
Dreams and Wishes: If asked, Jess will say her greatest fantasy is that she can go on to live a normal life. In reality, she’s been chasing dreams all her life, trying to be the perfect soldier she’d wanted to be as a child. It’s only now that she’s allowed herself to return to reality.
Long Term Friends: Jess doesn’t like depending on others, but she can’t picture her life without her kids or her siblings. They’ve become more a part of her life than she likes to acknowledge.
